Friday, 1 January 2010


It occurred to me, in the early hours of this morning, that my meditation practice had fallen by the wayside. 

Meditation never came easy to me, I had to start with physical meditation - focussing exclusively on the act of walking -  and work from there, but I have never attained the ability to sit still and focus on a solitary thought, without an interruption from my "monkey brain".   Rather I use housekeeping for meditative purposes: ironing, washing up, dusting and vacuuming all serve me well, as they are repetitive and help me hone my focus. 

Lately, I have been using tasks to think, not meditate, and I thought it might be because I feel I have somehow failed.  Even as I write this, "monkey brain" is grinning at me and shaking it's head, like a chimpanzee - perhaps in victory?   Is time that I accepted "monkey brain" has won, and physical meditation is all I can hope for?  I wonder if I am giving up to early and should continue to strive for a more peaceful route in meditation, even if I've been attempting to do so for over 20 years?

I guess I know what I'll be thinking about when I'm scrubbing the bathroom floor tomorrow.


Blue said...

Thank you for giving me a different perspective on what meditation is. I've never really thought of meditation as being anything other than sitting in silence to think and wind up falling asleep.

Cygnus MacLlyr said...

May I suggest not trying to focus on one thought, but rather "watching the river"? Let the mind move, but do not grab on to any one tangent. Thoughts come, thoughts go; flowing-- not dammed.

So many varieties/methods of meditating-- best wishes!

The walking/moving meditation is good, too-- but if it's changed... he! Time to bring it back or move with it!!!

Slainte, Lady!

Ancestral Gael said...

Thanks Cygnus, but I have tried that method, several times, along with others over the years, having attended various courses and workshops - all with little success.

I have success with what works now and I am more than aware of the methods that suit me and those that don't in most of my practices.

Thank you for the thought, though.